A Drive With Myself ...!!

On a bleak evening, having subdued by loneliness I went on drive on my bike to discover myself.
Don't know with whom it was competing, but my bike was striving to get through, tearing the gusty air. My mind was perplexed by baffling questions I was asking it to know myself.

Why my heart is still discontented having achieved many watersheds in life? I am not running to endeavour opulence for sure. With this I provided my mind with space shuttle to voyage in the flashback to gather reviving moments of my winsome life. Since my childhood, I have been very industrious not because I want to conquer the result but because I love the road to destination more than the destination itself. I have been lured by an enticing road since my adolescence and I started walking on it just having an insight of self satisfaction without a shred of cognizance about where this way is leading to.

As I grew, I found that it was a bait laid to trap me. There was a big stone of obstacle resting in my way to hinder my smooth run when I was preparing for higher secondary board examination. I strongly believe, had I been succumbed to that stumbling block, I would have fallen in to an abyss. My mind-hand coordination was hampered and I was just helpless not being able to write having each and every answer being known. I felt like bursting into tears of disappointment after each and every examination but my fighting nature helped me remain calm. Somehow I could manage to get at least respectable score and get into the Mechanical Engineering. After that I fought to vanish that hindrance from its root and I succeeded. To me it is my biggest achievement of life.

One thing I started believing is that there is always something good we have but we have to fight for the thing you don't have. For me it was in the form of physique. Having got a humiliating skinny body, I passed out from school with weight of 40 kg...!! Then I made up my mind and hit the gym. I would not say I could get a well toned body but could manage to get respectable 60 kg within few years. After that I started leaping on the roads I was walking slowly before. I got into IIT and lived moments of life there. I came to Bangalore, become a part of most exciting work but still I am not satisfied. I have chosen the way of technology development to contribute to the society and it requires lot more efforts.

All of a sudden, I realized that I have come 40 kms just reminiscing and I have to go back to my home as I cannot miss any episode of "Just Dance". After all past is past. It is just to get vigour and rigour to live in present. Having got almost everything I wished, still deep into the heart there is a sense of incompleteness, a shred of discontent.

Don't know why?

Where Gone Those Days Are?

Striking the key board after a long time, but not with ecstasy, neither with disheartened soul. One time's vivacious life seems to have become humdrum and insipid. Today again, I came back from office at 11.30 in the night when sky is being illuminated with the lustrous stars, when people are just on the verge of falling asleep. After previous day's night out to finish the assignment, I feel enervated and lost almost all vigor. Just had the glass of milk and turned on the music player to get some vitality. And suddenly one nostalgic question filled my mind, "Where Gone Those Days Are?" The days of joy, the days of fun, the golden days of IIT Kharagpur..!!

I asked one question to myself, Have I been really wanting this? I was aspirant and I achieved the best possible watersheds I wanted ever. Although I have entered into one of the best corporate industries, the memories of those luminous days lived in "IIT Kgp" are still reverberating . For me, It was complete transformation of my personality, I built up confidence in those years and made my life vivid. Got many opportunities, some disappointments too. Then I embarked into the company with high on confidence but lost some of it with the lapse of time. The time I feel loosing confidence, I just retrospect and get spirit from the propitious days spent in IIT Kgp. And I am sure, those days would not have been priceless, had you guys not been there...!!

I could remember, almost 3 years back, I met one person on Kolkata airport, nearly at around 11 pm, the person was almost 140 pounds, having rotund belly who didn't start talking with Hi and Hellos but rather tried to quench his longing by offering cigarette to us, "Does any one smoke ? ", that was the first words I listened from his mouth. And, that person was no other than our beloved "Tond", Aayush Agrawal, who was my first ever room mate. I still remember, we had disembarked from Jet Airways on Kolkata airport on late night, then we went to railway station to catch train for Kgp, we were tired and looking like refugees, seeking shelter but could not find train and we had to sleep on railway platform that night. What an experience it was...!!

Then I got the admission to IIT kgp, I was nervous as I hadn't got any offer before, to my interested field, and Kgp was my last ray of hope. But, somehow I could get entry to it and I was very happy that time. Then my journey started..A jaunt for joy and a quest for knowledge. I got my life's best experience in Kgp.

Now, I really miss those outings, those gossips, that food which was really not edible and that dwelling which was definitely not habitable. Where gone those days are, where the minds get refreshed and the hearts get raptured when our spartan Karan starts narrating the stories. I really miss the jargons of Tond which really were not understandable to anyone. Where disappeared those days when abstruse Hindi of sloppy Balu and funny Hindi of Sai make you smile.

Where disappeared those days when Leela sir gives you the best tips of love and dude Ravi makes you injured just by his hug. I really miss those cartoon T-shirts of Raju bhai, the unique hair style of Rajani, boisterous laughter of Dev-d and spasmodic company of Dudeni Neha. The strong knowledge base of Profs Pramod and Nirmal, the satirical talks of Babba, sincere talks of Swati and Sourabh and the pin drop silence of taciturn Dp and Kripa are really worth remembering.

Where is our cute chhotu who was really juvenile, where is our night bird, extremely vivacious and always exuberant Fatto who will accompany you at 2 o'clock in night for tea and berates you and pinch you if you don't follow her words. Where is that athletic girl Richa whose gibberish gossips make your day..!! Really where gone those days are..??

It is 2 o'clock in my watch now..my eyes are drowsy and seeking sleep. Tomorrow again the sun will shine and bring the rays of opportunities and progress. Again new milestones are ready to be achieved, new responsibilities would begin, new happiness would illuminate the life, but the memories of those days would always be in safeguards..!!

Friends Rock..!!!

Kholi no. 320...!!!

I know this title is looking strange...isn't it? This is not a story of any bollywood movie but rather suitable for new a hit..!!

Kholi no. 320...room no. C-320, V.S hall of residence..!! A residence of friends...A room which is not made of walls but of friends, talks, tales, joy and fun....!! Each student in VS hall of IIT kgp is alloted two rooms, one is that in which they sleep and the other is that in which they live and the latter is kholi no. 320...., officially alloted to the a character of VS hall rather IIT kgp..Karan Singh Baghel....!!!

This room is the talk of the town, a room to chillout, a room to have fun, a room to watch movies, a room to enjoy gossip, a room where you can enjoy the great Hindi of Balu, sweet hindi of Sai, all interesting and funny tales and incidents of Karan, inspiring talks of Leela sir and ----tales of Tond...!!

Let's see the contribution of all characters who make this room so special...!!!

Obviously, the biggest hit character Tond aka Agrawal Aayushkumar Ratanlal, my x-roomie, a farji politician, and symbol of-----!!! You can listen very strange things from this 140 pounds person...!! You can be familier with various kinds of sounds if you spend just one hour with him..!! But neglecting this natural things, a very good hearted person and contributes well in making the party alive..!!

Second khopdi, the pocket power house, Sai aka Saikat...A reality teller, a practical man, and a honest politician(!!!!!), he is the winner of orkut awards amongs us...(having freqency of one friend per day and 50 scraps per minute..!!) You can never find him in his official room (though there were some constraints to him in 1st year!!)...He used to eat everything including tea and water..!! ye pani bhi khata hai or chai bhi khata hai..!! or usko ladki achhi nahi lagti..par ladki achha lagta hai..!!!

Let's come over our Gudhdhu, our dear faltu aka balu...you can guess what would be his wapon to aid in entertainment...ya, you are right..."Is me bhi toda problem hai", i.e., his typical hindi..which you are never going to digest..!! But he speaks from his heart...very pure person, and a good entertaining package too...!!!

Now, the real owner of the room, the biggest superstar, yaaron ka yaar or dushmano ka bhi yaar....girls not inerested boy or man, cool dude Karan singh Baghel...!! A story teller in his typical ULTIMATE style..A real entertaining package, a source of good movies and serials, a source of funny and interesting tales..!! you can't stop laughing after hearing him..!! He makes almost half of the contribution in making this kholi as "palace of joy"..!!

And what about me?? I usually go at my leisure, to have fun, to get relaxed and to register myself as a partner of this room...!!

Also, inspiring thoughts of Leela sir, and presence of our Dev-d, the dude Ravi, design stud Raju bhai, and Vikas, sidhdhesh, and our Mathamaticians Billal and Atrijit do not let the tempo of this room go down..!!

In nutshell, yaron ka pyaar hai...dosto ka sath hai....C 320 ka tempo high hai..!!

We'll never forget the great time of our life that we spend together...!! Thank you C-320 to make our life in IIT kgp so special...!!!!

National Integrity

I have come for the first time to study out of my hometown, and that too almost 2000 kms away from my native place...! But I feel very happy to become a part of a prestigious institute like IIT Kharagpur...!!!

IIT or any such national level institutes are the place where you can smell the fragrance of India, you can feel that the whole India is situated in the campus of the university..!! But are we Integrated? Is our nation, where you can find many different culture integrated...?

The answer is PARTIALLY yes. Not, fully...!!

whenever I go to mess to have food, and sit with group of persons coming from same region but other than that of mine, I feel like undergoing a big torture..!! and sense like we are lacking in National Integrity..! sometimes I am confused that are we lacking national integrity or not trying to integrate??

The reason behind this is the Language...!!

If you people have forgotten, I ll recall you that Hindi is our national language, and after coming to here only I came to know that there are some states in India, especially southern regions, where people do not know Hindi..!! Isn't it shameful?

I had once a chat with my friend who is studying right now in Tamilnadu, and I came to know that Hindi is not being taught in some schools there..!! Inspite of being an Indian, if one cannot speak hindi, nothing is more shamelful than this..!!

I ll like to put my own experience..!! Some months ago we, some classmates had gone to
Sikkim to roam in the beautiful lap of the nature. During our travelling we used to hire taxis and go to different places. One day I was in a taxi with my 5 other friends who are Telugu..!! and they just start chattering....''chepu anna...anta...nennu...something like that..!", you can feel what torture i had had for 2 hrs..!! I was just sitting like a statue..!! Sorry my friends (Balu, shiva, Rajendra...) please, don't mind..!! Not only Telugu, I found this things happeing with all regions like Bengali, Gujarati and almost all...!!

The meaning of my saying is yes, you do give priority to your mothetongue, do preserve its cultural heritage, do talk with your same cultural friends in your mothertongue but when you are sitting in a group with persons coming from other regions of India, please talk in hindi and don't put that fellow into extremly awkward position..!!

One more thing I have seen here is communities...we are from Gujarati community, we are from bengali association, we are telugu association and bla bla..!! Ofcourse, that is good thing which gives you the feel of your native land but these communities should not go beyond the identity of being an Indian...!!

Unity has always been a most striking characteristic of India, so please does not let it seperate from the name of our great nation..!! Atleast communicate in Hindi when it is needed, and if you don't know, start learning hindi..!! If you are from a state where Hindi is not being taught in school than please write to minister of that state to make students of school learn hindi...!!! We are the responsible citizen of India and we have to preserve its valuable integrity..!!

Please cooperate with my thoughts and start building a United India...!!

Life...!!

This is my very first blog, I don't know why I am writting this, I don't know why being a nonphilosophical perosn I am writting about the best philosophy ever talked, called life...!! But, today I am in a mood to do so...!!

What is life?

I feel, life is there in each and every moment, life is there in every days rather days are there in life..!! To me good a life does not mean living in bunglows ans roaming in cars (though, I would be happy having that), but Life is watching a movie with your few close friends, Life is family, Friends are life, responsibility is the part of life, and enjoyments are bonded to life..!! Do not roam around the world to find the pleasure of life while treasure of pleasure is within us only..!! Enjoy your smallest work also and try to have fun in that..!!

Some people always live in past, worry about present and afrraid of future...!!

Some are living in future and wasting their present..!!

Some are living in present in such a way that they are wasting their future..!!

I feel we should take advantage of mistakes done in past, live happily in present and plan for future to make it further happier...!! I guess majority of people are thinking like this...!!

Coming to the mysterious part of life..!!

Why are we living?

One philosophy tells that our present life is the updated version of our past life and our future life will be updated version of this life. some people are so much convinced about this philosophy that they are continuously in the effort to make their next life beautiful..what is the meaning of not living this live life to make the life after death beautiful...!!

Another philosophy says that everyone get fruits of his/her deeds in this life itself before death..!!

Science tries to reveal this secrete in its own different way...!!

But, whatever is the philosophy, keep the fragrance of this beautiful life till you are over..!! Live life positively, have fun in life, do your duties well, understand your responsibility to your family, friends, society, nation and mankind..!! let the ethics of life live...!! Either you consider as a secrete or a boon, dont waste it doing stupid and unethical things...Let the spirit of life last long...!!

This is my idea about this journey called "Life". Everyone has his/her own viewpoints towards the life....Let us share them and try to make our life as great as we can...!!!